Here we go again! I can’t believe in just one week I will be halfway through this pregnancy AND in just 6 days my little girl will be TWO YEARS OLD!!! We hear it all the time, but really, where does the time go?! I hope that can also at least begin to explain the lack of attention to this little thing called my blog! Oh, how I’ve missed you!
There are a few reasons I’ve been absent lately. One is the lack of time. Part of the reason I have so little of it is my inability to stay awake at night! Most people I know are night owls or at the least can stay up until 10pm without a question. I have never, ever been that way. Add between a toddler and pregnancy that’s just the perfect recipe for sleep-whenever-possible.
Another reason is the desire and love of being present in the moment. I know one day that’s far too soon my children will be at school all day and I will miss that time. Blogging for me isn’t about just writing whatever is on my mind, it also requires me to think ahead, plan recipes, or document them all which doesn’t allow me to “just be in the moment”. It clearly works for a lot of people, and I admire them (they’re probably night owls) but unfortunately it’s just not me!
OK back to baby! You may remember my struggles getting pregnant with Evie. Luckily that wasn’t so much the case this time around. My too-healthy-ways (which yes, impacted my ability to get pregnant the first time around) were not an issue like before. Once I got pregnant with Evie I surrendered to the process allowing intuitive eating to come into place rather than trying to control so much or deeming certain foods as “off limits” or just too limited in general. And it’s been amazing. Liberating. And delicious.
We found out we were having a boy quite early (around 11 weeks) since this is a “geriatric pregnancy”. Ha!! No, really, that’s a thing. Once you hit that ripe old age of 35 you’re considered more of a “high risk” pregnancy. Ladies if you’re there you know what I’m talking about! I’ll just go ahead an view it as getting extra special attention. We are super excited that Evie will get a little brother and we’ll have another addition to our family. Evie seems really excited she’s getting a sibling we’re just working on the “brother” part. Every time we tell her she’s getting a brother she happily replies “sister”. Sorry to burst your bubble Evie but… she’ll come around eventually, right?!
This pregnancy seems quite different than the first time. I felt symptoms much sooner, including extreme fatigue (which I did have the first time too) and nausea. The nausea was pretty bad. Luckily I never actually vomited, but it was just all day every day, even more so as the day went on and at night. It didn’t make it easy to not just take care of an active demanding toddler but be pleasant and patient as well. There were plenty of days I felt like a bad mom and one time I even cried when I woke up because I didn’t want to get out of bed and face the day ahead! Once I hit the second trimester it got significantly better. The nausea subsided and I no longer feel like I need to sleep every minute of the day. Hooray! I also didn’t feel Evie until I was 22-23 weeks pregnant, and this time I started feeling him move at 14! I also started showing at 11 weeks (photo above) whereas the first time was 18 weeks (pictured below).
I’m excited and feel very fortunate that I have friends due right around the same time who also have toddlers. It’s so, so helpful to have mom friends who are in the same boat. I really don’t know what I’d do without them. I do know I’d feel lonely! I didn’t have a lot of girlfriends before having a baby but the term “it takes a village” is no joke. It really takes a handful of people to get through so many tough times! I can bring up crazy toddler or pregnancy issues and they get it.
I will post on Evie’s 2nd birthday party which was also the gender reveal next! We have a trip to Disneyland in store and her actual birthday, so I will save the photos for that! Here is a flashback of her 1st birthday party 🙂